EX ME

October 23, 2023 Leave a comment

I hear a lot about narcissism referring to OTHER PEOPLE. (Let’s be honest – sometimes it’s simply a case of the initial/stronger/louder/more regular narrator of the tale owning the narrative – but am learning that there are many sides to a story. Even the ones I like to tell.) It could be true ALL THE TIME…and that what they put you through is unforgivable. But when I personally get to this place, I ask myself (mostly after wailing, raving and ranting) who the nicest person I know is…and if I have ALWAYS treated HIM as He deserves. What would God say about ME if He had to FACTUALLY share the story of US.

Ahem…I am an ex to MANY people. Ex-relative, ex-colleague, ex-friend, ex-classmate, ex-student, ex-congregant, ex-tenant, ex-neighbor, ex-roomie which sometimes embraces the more scandalous – ex-lover…many times over. Numerically and situationally (I don’t take endings and signs of these without a proper war). Some, I have forgotten, but hopefully not the good and bad lessons I learnt while entering, living or exiting these.

We try, and sometimes our authenticity or fear of the same, brings out the worst in those we really love…or really want to Love. Forgive. Sometimes, many times over, what we need is beyond the ability of the other person to provide. They need divine armory – fully loaded but are not yielded enough to even know what to do with what’s available. It’s ok. They will grow. Sometimes ELSEWHERE. FAR AWAY FROM WHERE YOU ARE PROBABLY.

God remembers daily that He created me from the rib of a dust-man (who…ahem…is probably yet to wake up to find me either sprawled or well arranged -soft, perfumed, ‘properly toned and curved’ – by his side 😁🥳). His Grace is Reset daily for me – and that’s the standard that He calls me to set up for those He entrusts in relationship with me. My enemies, my ex’s and my currents…there is fruit He expects to find when He comes inspecting (for peksen). Let Him find in me a Hybrid of Love and Forgiveness…to His Standards. Unabashedly. Am moving on, forgetting the former things…and embracing…BIGGER, without yesterday’s baggage.

I am not God’s ex – thankfully – but what really is His Story of us? Ahem.

#Reset#LivingInHisPresence

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